DOOOOD

So many things happening for this week. First I gotta get ready for my finals on the 27th. And today is my mom's birthday. I was planning on doing something else for today, but my plan had changed. Ahhh why must I put off so many things to do later when I should be focusing on my finals. Also, my boss wants me to work on Monday which only gives me a one day weekend for this week. I need to focus on something else rather on emotions and feeling.

 

 

"Time to get back in the fight"

Guess it's time to get back on my feet again. Memories are kept but everyday life moves on. I guess I'll need to train myself to relax and not to think so much. I would also need to control my anger nowadays. Me being a Leo tends to get angry easily and will need to control it. anyways slowly recovering... haha till next time

Sigh* why is it that during the summer time, I will think back to what happened to me in the previous summer? Why can't I lock it up and don't ever think back to it? Is it because I'm growing older in the summer that I worry or think about my past? or is it that the atmosphere of summer makes me think about what bad thing had happened to me? I'll never know and as summer comes and goes; I'll never forgive myself fo what I had done. I guess what I'm seeking is redemption and want to atone for my past. It'll eat me if I keep it in me, and I'll think about it no matter what. What must I do to forget the horrible memory of the past? I've tried to be happy and keep myself busy, but it'll never go away. I guess that I will face this every summer and never be happy for this season. Sigh*

 

P.S. the memory takes place in Oak town aka Oakland...not to mislead people's impression of my summer time with you guys

Lately I've been thinking about a lot of stuff from my memories long ago. These memories are related to my feelings and people around me. I guess everyone knows that they can count on me to help them out when they need help, or try to be there for them. That's the kind of person I am. But for others to be trusted is a hard question for me to think about. In the past, I have met people who lied to me, used me, and played with my feeling before. Of course I block them off from my life for good. So my thinking is why people would want to lie or use other people(friends) just to get what they wanted when they could've just be nice. I know the world is balance between good and bad, and there are friends who I can really depend on to help me out sometimes. Since these bad things that happened to me before the good makes me really think about how I can trust people who only lie, use and play their friends around. *sigh* well that is what I've been thinking about lately. Till next time

Haha trying to learn using Adobe to create home pages. It may seem easy thing to do but it's actually hard for a first time user here. Haha anyways I'll learn along the way. As for the Japanese class I wanted to take, cannot add the class. Oh well, I'm still determined to take it so I'll try it in the Fall quarter as the teacher said that they will offer 5 classes during the Fall. So now I need to focus on Adobe haaha ^__^. If anyone knows something about it, maybe you can be my tutor? In the meantime, I need to experiment it.

things that was really annoying or just made my day horrible.

 

1) The boss of the company is coming over to check things through. (which means a lot of work for me to do to make things look nice and full)

 

2) My japanese class needs to be exchanged due to a different level. That means I gotta drop it online and be on a waiting list for the other class.

 

2) my car battery died on me again today due to the sucky weather we are having here. IT's partially raininy and sunny. Will the stupid weather make up it's mind???

 

3) I went to downtown today and there was something happening at city hall. A lot of mexicans are there holding American and Mexican flags. I have no idea what was going on and they closed 5 blocks just for it. So the traffic there sucks.

 

That's pretty much my day. If any one else can do one better. Please let me know.